Date: 06/30/07
Time: 7:11 pm
Posted to: Fertility Fudgery - Whuh? - babies - the blonde

Updating you on the fertility (or lack thereof) homefront. This is my last day of 5 days worth of Clomid. This is the first time I’ve ever felt anything like this, girls!!

Mood swings? Oh you bet! I am so content & happy & full of energy. Then I crash when I put Starlet down for her nap. I am falling asleep as I try to rub her back, as my Mini-Me wiggles & whines,”Mommmeeeeeeeee…. mooorrrrreeeee!” (Sound familiar, Mom??)

I have this really jacked up desire to constantly clean. Yah, you read me. And I know I’m an obsessive neatfreak, but with Hubz, Offspring & Dog, I have learned to just let go. But now? Someone puh-leez make it stop! And I’m not even getting freaked out about the messes. I just go about my happy hormone-amped business, constantly cleaning. Whuh??

And the Hubz? He has been working oh so hard with many long hours this week. Ok so that’s not so odd, but I’m torn: Do I miss him? Or should I be grateful that he’s not here to be the brunt of my mood swings? Ummm… yes… both. The poor man.

And baby, oh baby, have I EVER been a blonde lately?!* Not just forgetting things, but beating myself up, literally. I’ve been in this house almost a year. You’d think I know WHERE A WALL IS, right?? Not so much. Loopy? Check. Dingy? Check. Multiple bruises? Check.

I’m surrounded by uber-fertiles & it seems EVERYone is getting knocked up, so you’d think some of it has to rub off, right? My trainer had her IUD out for THREE WEEKS & got prego. Hello???

So that is that. Love it. Hate it. Am I really this suddenly happy & content & easy going? I have no clue.

So, up next? My first (and I’ll be an optimist here & say “hopefully only”) IUI is tentatively scheduled for next Tuesday. Deep breath. Slow exhale. Pray. Keep cleaning.